歧義

2008/11/26

Someone leaped to death

Filed under: Hong Kong,Live — pinksealife @ 13:53

This morning, from a tall building in my reseidential estate, someone leaped to death.  It’s so high from which that person leaped that the organs spreaded over a large area around.  This is the first thing I experienced for the start of today.  I waws obviously shocked in some way, but before I could come out of my blue and complicated feelings, life goes on, and I proceed my way along the locus. 

 

Along the way, I kept on thinking: why did that person reosrt to ending life? Why leaping to death? Why leap? To espcape? Why death in such a lovely neighbourhood? Why in the morning, when there’s light and hope? Is there light in that person’s eyes anymore? I tried to imagine the process from life to death and the determination to end.  I tried to find out where’s the turning point.  I just can’t figure it out.  ” 資料不足,無從判斷

Seems like this is life, life seems more and more unintelligible.  I also recall Jim Jim’s Man of la Tiger, in wihch people insisted to find out why 馮仁望 gave up to evacuate from the MTR that ran into the sea.  Is t really that unintelligible?  Or is that person telling a sample story that many questioners share?

 

I’m not sure if I’m in anyway close to the answer, but I know I am shocked.  Some of my believes and ideals have been disagreed with by action.  my blindspots have been projected in front of me.  I’m facing it, I can’t turn my head, I can’t escape…but I still manage to be positive.

 

It’s not a kind of cheap optimisilimism…”真正的樂觀,是在看到結果之後,依然保持著最初的微笑。」

不要廉價的樂觀,努力做到最從容去認命。

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2 Comments »

  1. Pinky~! I have forgotten visit here for so long already…..Certainly I’ve missed lots of meaningful things. Sigh~

    I realized that I’ve become hysterical
    when dealing with the loads of works in front of me on Monday.

    On my way home in MTR that nite,
    I saw a piece of news that estimated the number of
    manic-depressive psychosis sufferers in HK is amazingly high as 250 thousand~!
    And I’ve recalled a number of things I learned 2 years ago
    in the broadening course YSRP0001,
    that 1) depression and suicide will be a serious problem,
    posing a number of threats and life lost in 20 years time;
    2) the likelihood of committing suicide for bipolar disorder patients
    is several ten of times higher than the unipolar ones…..

    Comment by Toby — 2008/11/26 @ 15:01 | Reply

  2. Yea, as a non-hall residents of HKU, I noticed more and more all those interesting obversations that I can find on the MTR – I can really find some many trace of depression and tense from people’s behaviour on the MTR. I think we all really need more space in HK – you too! Try to go further away during the weekends, after work , just go to Sha Wan near HKU to see the sunset, or take 973 to Stanley instaed of TST – when you look deeper and differently, space may emerge and you’ll find happiness in it!

    Have a beauty-filled life, Toby =)

    Pinky

    Comment by Pi9nky — 2008/12/01 @ 09:06 | Reply


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